Living without Dogma or Doctrine, pt.1

I’m not sure if my earliest memories were christian memories. Some of my first recollections are going to an Episcopal kindergarten and then a Catholic elementary school even though my family was neither Episcopalian nor Catholic. Despite attending a religious sponsored early education I was not  immersed in strict adherence to a religious lifestyle. In Catholic school I was held apart because my mother identified as Lutheran. I attended Catholic mass but was not bound to its doctrine being of another faith. I attended Lutheran services on Sunday but did not identify with it as all of my school mates were Catholic and I identified with them.  While God and Jesus were ubiquitous in both worlds I found myself following and enjoying the subject of science and marveling at the clear cut explanations that it provided.  Although I had no reason to doubt the existence of God at the time, I found the many rituals comforting, if not boring and time consuming to my young mind.  Even after rejecting the faith entirely in favor  of a scientific world view in middle school there was still an overwhelming desire to find meaning and purpose in life and all of it’s phenomena.  This would lead me into trouble as my life progressed…